Assalamualaikum

Alhamdulillah home sweet home alas. After almost a month being away, no more homesick :) I miss my family and home-made food haha. How I miss my friends when we used to hang out at the school field, giving reviews on almost everything. Yeah now, we're kinda apart thanks to faraway university campuses. The only times we could face each other; at mid-sem and sem breaks. Same goes to meeting family. Ohh boy uni life is way different than school life. School kids out there, please appreciate your times at school. You'll miss it, believe me.

This time, I didn't sleep after arriving home. Usually I'll be at my hometown at about 3 - 4 am so I'll go straight to bed after reaching home. But yesterday, I switch on the TV and acted like I just finished my SPM. I was craving for TV time. Don't get me wrong, there's TV at my apartment house, but I had no time spending my resting time in front of the TV. All of rest periods are used on sleeping. Had a mother-daughter talk with Mum in the morning, she was preparing herself for school. Then this subject came in our talks:

Umi masih terasa pasal tu. Umi teringin tengok kakak pergi sana. Sedih. Macam frust bercinta. Sayang betul. Kakak tak rasa ke?

I feel you, Mum. In fact, I never mentioned about this to keep yourself and even Dad from worrying. Dad doesn't seem to show but I knew he's hurt too. I'm the own dealing with this, of course I'm feeling the stab. When Mum suddenly brought that up, ZAPP. The old wound has bleed. Still, I kept my face smiling and kept talking to her like it's no big deal. Although it's been a few days already, just get myself some alone time and yeah I'm letting everything go in this post.

Redha and husnuzon. Don't forget du'a and tawakkal. 

Keeping my life organize :) I'm not gonna repeat my mistakes. Ya Allah, prevent me from repeating the same mistakes. Amin amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Out.